April 25th

April 25th Mr. Man will be having an echocardiogram and meeting with the cardiologist. We "hope" this isn't the doctor that has the answer to what is wrong with him, but if it is bring it! I am so ready to start getting answers on WHY he gets tired so easily, WHY his legs bother him, WHY he sleeps so much, WHY it takes so much longer for him to "heal" from stuff. True i am scared but i mean what mom wouldn't be. Over all we are ready.

Daddy and L will be going to the aquarium after dropping Mr. Man and myself off at MUSC (cause you all know how much i love there).. He will have to be sedated to have the echo done (which lets hope this sedation goes a hell of a lot better than the last one).

The more i think about it being his heart the more scared i get. It makes way to much sense. I mean my mom's parents and mom and myself all have heart issues.. Mine is just my heart beats too fast and i can't do public speaking nothing major but yeah still something. My grandparents died from CHF (heart failure).. Wait for it... My mind keeps running back to John Q stuff.. Like OMG that REALLY could be what Mr. Man has.. I highly doubt it but it's hard after a horrible day to not think the "what if's"

Like Sunday we went to IOP Beach and we were there 1.5 hours.. Mr. Man had fun but then started "melting" as we put it. So we came home. He took a 3 hour nap then got up for an hour then slept for 14 hours that night and then slept damn near all day, and when he was up he screamed and just sat there. He was so miserable, not even a sucker and mickey mouse could comfort him (which if you knew him it is his all time fav things). He just wanted to sleep. He took 3 naps that day and then slept another 13 hours that night.. Now tell me what normal 2 year old would sleep that much just from an HOUR of playing at the beach. This just sucks! I want to be able to do "fun" things with him and L while daddy is gone but honestly i can't wear him down like this and suffer the next day. So i feel that we will be staying home a lot while daddy is deployed.

If Mr. Man has a heart problem we will let SN know and Hubby's command will more likely have him stay back and not leave me (once again i'm alone here). So yeah we will have to see what all the Cardiologist is going to say..

In the mean time i will lay in bed every night and think of the "what if's" and try to stay positive..